almost a 'free' mom ...

seems like i haven't blogged as much as i used to, and as much as i'd like to.

reason for the lack of blogging lately is simpy coz i've ran out of ideas on what to blog. each time i set myself with the lappie and open the blogger site, i just stare at the screen a bit and then open another site on the very window. the only topics i can think of to write on is my lil girl and her big brother. and then i'm reminded that blog-hoppers have probably had enough of reading on moms adjusting to life with a new baby in the house. after all, how much of sleepless night (and days!), changing diapers (and onesies, and the mum's top, and the cotlinen and the parents' bedlinen ... you get the picture), bottle warming, formula mixing, lullabying does one need to read? or, how much of a 4 year old's antics does one need to laugh at or worry over? it all sounds pretty similar if not, frighteningly (or, reassuringly) identical from one mom's experience to another's. that's what i'm reminded of then. but it won't stop me from writing my own share of momsie adventures. ;-) so here goes ...

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the lil one is now 43 days old. in the Malay culture, for those who strictly follow its (culture) confinement rules, i'm officially a day away from completing the confinement period. this means, come end of tomorrow, i shall be a 'free' mom once again. free to roam the streets (or in lovely hot weather KL, roam the malls ... heh!), free to eat as i wish to (still a good idea to go slow on spicy and sweet stuff), free to kick off my socks, free to 'unleash' my abdominal area from the bengkung (though wearing it more can only do good in the kempis-perut department ;-)). yes ... i've all these things to look forward to. yippie! right? yea, one would think so.

the reality though is that i'm suddenly overwhelmed by the whole "i'm a mom to 2 kids now, thus having more responsibilities to attend to". i'm realising now that i'm not quite ready to ferry around 2 kids in public. in many ways, i think i was better prepared to go public after my confinement period with Big Z. this time though, i'm anxious. much too anxious, to be honest. maybe coz i've not just a baby to see to, but an active 4 year old too. maybe coz after 4 years, i'm not the most natural and most competent mom when it comes to feeding, burping, carrying and rocking a new baby. maybe coz i've been pampered to a certain extent by the Zs' Daddy - he's been able to rock and sleep Baby Z better than i have been, truth be told. it's all of this that is making me not jump off my seat in excitement to actually officially end my confinement period. but how long can one really stay at home before the sanity of said-one person goes a wee bit rocky? so, i shall do it. small steps should do it, yes? maybe a treat for myself to begin with (always finding reason to reward self ... haha). a haircut maybe? or a manicure and pedicure?or perhaps some new clothes? ;-)

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Big Z has started school again. he was off for 2 weeks and what a Big Z-filled 2 weeks it was!! he just has much too much energy this boy. from the minute he wakes up (and wakes up early he does, even during his holidays and at weekends!), there's no shutting him up really. from all sorts of stories, comments, questions to renditions of TOO many songs, the house was far from quiet this past 2 weeks. he had also created his Island(s) of Sodor in every room in the house (minus the kitchen, the utility and the bathrooms ... thank god!). he drew many many pictures of his favourite island - some very sparse, some filled with trains and tracks, lots of trees, clouds, rainbows, flowers, apples and passengers too. he practiced his reading a bit and can now read some simple words - yey! but still needs a lot of practice.

his over-excited self caused not one, but TWO accidents at home - he missed a step at the stairs - left a good bruise on his leg and just 2 nights before going back to school, had a nasty cut just below his left eye ... literally JUST BELOW (much to the Daddy's and Mummy's horror!!). the said-cut, courtesy of him creating his Island of Sodor on the floor and extending the island onto the TV cabinet! he was leaping his trains off the cabinet to the floor repeatedly when an error of judgement left him knocking the corner of the cabinet. i was in the shower when i heard the loud cry. the Daddy and i can't stop thinking how lucky he is to have just, only just missed his eye. i dare not even think of the consequences had it been the eye itself which took the knock. sigh ... they say accidents happen a lot at home ... well, two is more than plenty for us to handle.

today, he came back giving us a report of what he did in school - "cutting some stuff ... reading in library, but i did not block Aunty Carol's way" (he must have blocked his teacher's path once before .. haha), Mandarin (and then said some Mandarin words the Mummy obviously doesn't know) ... satu, dua, tiga, empat, lima - only lima Mummy, and then Aunty Carol stopped ... looked for insects in the garden, but i think it was too hot so the insects were hiding from me (haha!) ... and then i had fried rice, but tomorrow i think we eat pasta (always thinking about food, this one) ... and then mata, hidung, kaki, rambut, and then i don't know coz it's time to go home already ... zarif .... your Daddy's here (he mimicked one of the teachers there .. heheh)". a full report you can get from him if he so wishes to tell you. :-)

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so that's me then. and the 2 Zs and the Daddy (more like making cameo appearances in this blog .. haha). till the next round of our unpatterned days then ...

:: here's the Big Z and his cut under the eye ::

:: here's the Baby Z - "i dont sleep - NOBODY sleeps!" - you don't say! ::

* Ling, this one's for you ... you mintak, you dapat ... hehe